the best is yet to be

as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together

a rly meaningful baccaleureate chapel service today to end off a very treasured and prominent two years of my life. twas a time of retrospection, reflection, and expression of affection by many. what the teachers did for us were truly moving, and their thoughtfulness touched alotta us to tears. the bacc & arts fac videos, the lil bracelets of light from ms yim, all the well-wishes.. the many tear-jerking moments which made today even more memorable & difficult to part with. i'll rly miss our little happy hut, even tho it still reeks of paint at times. a place which has been almost like a 2nd home, the NL12 where JC began, and also NL1 in which JC ends. ): i wish today would go on forever...



keep shining, keep smiling..

we too saw a whole new side to AHRed today. the wild and fun side of people (: a 4 hour kbox session turned into a 'clubbing' session, wit all of us getting drunk on pure adrenaline and iced lemon tea, going high wit our crazy dancing and jumping on the sofas, singing (and screaming) lyrics at the top of our lungs. it was prolly the most fun & high time ive had for a long while (: I LOVE YOU AHRED! *muack*

bringing myself back to the harsh reality, is the fact that As is promptly arriving in 26 days. time to get serious with studying. lets be little jackaloompas, bounding together to the last leg of this race! (:


to lose.. truly, is to find

fallen off the face of the earth..

i cld nv rly understand what that meant last time when people used that phrase. but now i finally get how that technically impossible task cld apply itself in so many other non-physical ways, that it truly merits such a saying. such as, the mutability of human nature. how a blink of the eye can change things beyond comprehension, or how fast a cup brimming with friendship & love could be emptied in juz a few seconds. i guess it only serves to emphasize how inferior our love is compared to God's perfect unconditional love. i take comfort knowing that God's love will always be abundant, and knowing that i will never turn away from His love.

Daddy's driving this ride..

we played "mini-squash" today (: a little modification that seok n i made to the game after our feeble futile & failed attempts at making our balls fly faster & create the "woosh" sound. the guys had their laugh at our expense, but it was way more effective & fun after the mod! (: hehehe. gotta do more pushups...

i love cartoons (: hehehe. cartoons for chapel are a great idea. too bad its our last chapel. -sob- im gonna miss it alot.. ):


Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush, hold it too loose, it'll fly...

dont lose faith in me

Lord i give You my heart
i give You my soul..

fighting on. pressing forward. feeling rather burnt out. just a little tired, a little drained. just a little."whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable.. think about such things". thinking happy thots and reminiscing happy memories makes me feel better (:

studying "the return of the native" is abdominably painful. bring on the shakespearean plays, bring on the math formulas, bring on population policies.. just not Thomas Hardy. his themes & characters always seem to hit home. hit emotional base. its rly a love-hate relationship. i read in awe, but painful awe.

ouch.

go to the ant, you sluggard...

out and over.

more than words

the filming of arts fac video today (which we got abruptly dragged into) got me thinking of my life in arts fac; or more generally, my past 2 years in AC. and i was left with little words to say as i sat in front of the cam, because the whole experience has been, as cliche as it sounds, only more than words cld describe. you cant help feeling a wave of sadness wash over you, knowing that soon its gonna be goodbye. lets cherish the last 4 days of life in the arts fac, b4 it fades to become a treasured memory (:

and i will be still, and know You are God...

shades of gray

feels gd to be home early once in a while (: havent done that in a long while.

it even gave me time to cut my hair cuz i was rather grossed out by the fact that there were still parts of cherie's cake stuck in my hair even after i tried to wash it in sch. cake-smashing was fun, but the after-cleanup wasnt all that exciting. esp when it was all over our uniforms, hair, and face. but anyways~ happy birthday cherie!! haha baby chong's graduated frm kindergarten to pri sch hehehe (:

colorgenic's quiz. seok recommended. and i can see why. the horrifyingly to-the-point accurate assessment of mood kinda freaked me out. i cant tell if the results are gd or bad, but i totally agree with the need for games! too bad we cldnt play squash today ): boohoo

heres what colorgenics had to say..
"You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what? This is a part of your character and charm.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbors and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favorite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you"

tong hua

where princes & princesses live happily ever after. too bad thats a mere facade of the real world ):

doodling as a form of cleansing. i nv rly thought of that. a medium in which all emotions spill out in the forms of creative language. a few of us were "cleansed", with much gratitude due to the very clean blacks tables in LT4. how fun. i love doodling. maybe one day it'll b considered a form of art (:

They say that love can heal the broken
they say that hope can make you see

watched the guys kick each other's ass at the squash courts today. funfunfun! too bad i cldnt play in a skirt. hope we get to play tmr too! (: something to look forward to finally! yayay (: tmr will be a better day. with faith like a child!



this is my fairytale ending..

smile

"sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy"

keep smiling, keep shining. with tenacity, ruggedness of the soul & spirit, and power frm the Almighty Father, Joy will be strong and tough. drained, frm 4 whole hours dedicated to intellectual lit consultation, right after 2 hours of geog lectures straight out of sch. drained, yes, but ive also felt insurmountable gratitude and indebtedness for the arts teachers that ive nv felt in the entire time in AC. them who hung in there with us till near 9pm. thank you so much.

"I love the man that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection"

tho sometimes.. i juz wish.. i were one of those lucky science students who get the time to study and cram, or to be able to just take time off for a fun game of squash. with our schedules fully packed till a week after baccaleurate, it's a dubious and problematic assumption that we'll have any time at all for ourselves.

a rather cute quote i just heard off the radio about smiling. "smile - its the second best thing you can do with your lips". so heres a big wide smile (: keep smiling, keep shining!

the star is fall'n

"Bid that welcome which comes to punish us, and we punish it, seeming to bear it lightly" - Antony

a sleepy drowsy day, drunken with monday fatigue (as i term it) and lots of nonsense-sprouting frm a very tired and sleepy girl.

omg 30 days. i was still living in 20 days ago. how i wish time wld stop. wait up for mee!!

take me away

having a college med student in church can be rather interesting and.. informative. we've been fed with medical facts, bio terms, and many more, but nothing can beat what enquan shared today during combined cell grp sharing. he practically gave us a walk-through description of a gynecology exam, and his difficulties in finding women to practice the exam on that they have to hire women to test their exam skills on. o_0 frm what i gather the process doesnt rly seem all that pleasant to both the performer and performee. maybe it was a blessing in disguise that i didnt take bio after all haha

had a pretty gd talk wit lide ytd night and i rly thank God for such a friend (: my shoulders felt alot lighter after the talk (: thnx alot bro *hugs* screw the NS enlistment God will make a way!! (:

*sniff* i think ive caught a cold ): again. maybe thats y i have absolutely no mood to go out. all i wanna do is snuggle up cozy in bed under my quilt with ice-cream n chocolates and stay there forever. 60 more days!!

gd luck to all the promos-takings-or-attemptings! just do your best and let God do the rest (: as the "saying" goes.. easy peasy lemon squeezy!

happy childrens day!

a sincere greeting to all kids, both below 12, and over 12 (: afterall, we're all children at heart, and children of God!

worship seminar today was awesome. worship was led by sonic edge -gasp- and the speaker was robert brenner. he spoke about the fundamentals of worship and it was truly inspiring (: in more ways than one. felt a rly strong sense of peace during worship, and the whole seminar set my perspective about worship in place.

during worship i saw someone who looked like someone else. which got me rather puzzled. until i found out it was actually another someone else whom i knew. either i have a pretty vivid imagination, or alotta pple juz happen to look like someone else.

or maybe.. the meager 5 hours of sleep is catching up on me.

haha orchard was pretty empty today. i like (: why is it empty? because everyone is prolly studying their asses off while im attempting to finish my cheese fries. which just makes me doubly sinful ):

im still counting the stars...

a few stupid but funny quizzes ripped off frm mike's blog haha..

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

hmm. maybe.

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

hehe cool. i am easily fascinated, but idk bout the rest. haha

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front. Shy and private, you yearn for security. You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

hmm. quite true.

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

wahaha. true true. as i was saying about my imagination..