faith. inspite of feelings

well guess there's always ups and downs in life.
cant always expect things to go up, up, and up.
"to fall is not to fail
you fail when you don't try" right?

just a little hard to reconcile the fact that it was so close and yet so far.
thinking of the "what-ifs" or "if-i-didnt-do-that"s just makes things so much harder to digest
but i cant help but ponder about the whole process, bringing myself back to the scene where it mattered
a little bit more concentration, a little less carelessness, it prolly wld have made the cut
but i guess He has His reasons, and so when things go wrong, just try, try, again.

a devastatingly disappointing start to my day, but it ended on a pretty light note
meeting up with sarah and jeremy for baked-rice dinner at NYDC, and then with the addition of zhic @ venezia (:
guess it kept my mind off many things that were going thru my head
many things i have yet to complete, and many things i've failed to accomplish

its just one of those periods of time, when you wish you can just hold the time captive
rewind, reverse, relive everything again so that you will set things right
sighh. guess i need a few more days to turn this upside-down-u upright again..
but it'll come ((:

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huishi: haha im super tired today. mentally exhausted :(

celine: haha ok i'll help you congratulate them! (:

lide: ok anything you say =p haha