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Death is not the end
Death can never be the end.

Death is the road.
Life is the traveller.
The Soul is the Guide

...

Our mind thinks of death.
Our heart thinks of life
Our soul thinks of Immortality.

John Logan once said that "music is the medicine of the mind"
if that were the case, i was happily overdrugged and overdosed with music medicine yesterday (:

i attended and performed for a wedding ceremony ytd @ east galleria
according to abel, ytd was THE DAY to get married. i wonder why.
but anyway the wedding we musician-ed for was for zhic's captain who was holding a military wedding (how cool is that)
unfortch, we didnt get to see the military part since it was for invited guests only -.-

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so anyway, here're the 3 stringers - we performed without a viola because samuel got called back to camp
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the performance was not bad, but the music they played on the speakers after we performed was alot better
the food there was awesome, but the angpao we received after was.. GREAT!!! (:

band practice @ church and caroling prac after that led to more camwhoring sessions :P
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as for the past week, its just been hectic. too hectic.
for one, we had our resonance first-years performance last tuesday, and it was funnnn!
after 7 weeks of singing the same carols and songs over and over again, it was the night of showdown
we were the first group to go, and it was pretty good cuz my nerves would have been fried watching the other groups go first
pictures up later as well when i get em (:

anyway, theres a damn flu bug going around, and i seem to have caught one (again)
feeling under the weather's kinda like an understatement for what i'm feeling right now
but yeah, it'll pass. right?

Verjüngung

its great to just sit outdoors on a nice 23deg-temperature weather
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especially when you have a great candle-lit feast right in front of you (:
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a nice dinner at sunset satisfied my immense craving for chilli crab
i still have about 1.5 crabs worth of crabs in my refrigerator now (:
and then it was back home for our 5-hour long movie marathon hahaha wooots

that was my day off.. with you (:

Here i am, giving every heartbeat
For your glory take me


"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him
and He shall direct your paths.." -Proverbs 3:5-6

knotting the knots

i went for a massage with joshua a few days ago before reso rehearsals
i've been eyeing that teeny massage room that used to be YIH's tv room before it was converted to a massage centre
for $7.20, our backs were battered and rubbed and elbowed and pinched at where it was most painful
delighting the uncle & the auntie massuer and massuese with our cries of pain (and ticklish moments for me)
it was a rather painful experience for me, cuz whenever i commented that a spot was painful, the auntie went harder on it
acc to her, "the more painful the pressure, the more shiok later"

the massage got rid of quite some of the knots in my shoulders, but there remained the rest of the knots - in my mind.
sometimes i wished there was a massuese who would pinch away these mental knots that seemed to tighten every now and then
it got me wondering, does it take painful pressure to erase these knots as well?
when a person undergoes alot of stress, does it build him up or take him down?
when theres alot of pressure around me (self-imposed or otherwise), will i go through it and feel shiok after as well?

PMS has been my easy scapegoat, and i've been blaming that poor syndrome for all my unhappy knots
im still trying to ease these knots apart, bit by bit, slowly but steady.
and just hope for the best while im at it

on a side note, i watched the movie "superbad" with lide today, and it was just as its title suggested
or maybe its just a guy show, that contained more than 100 F-words by half time
nevertheless a nice movie because.. it was FREE! (: hahaha thanks lide
the other movie i've watched was "the brave one" with mac.
which has mentally unsound characters living out mentally unsound values
boy im glad im not living in the US.

now back to the essay i've been avoiding by blogging.
back to.. reality.

music makes the world go round

"music washes away from the soul, the dust of everyday life" -Berthold Auerbach

so.. despite having a very torturous academic schedule and an incredulous scale of workload,
these few weeks carried its own joy and treasured moments to be cherished (:

i guess its times like these that make you really treasure whatever free time you've got on your hands
and its just so much sweeter just to be able to do things that you usually take for granted

but before i forget,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE TAN!!! (:(:
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yes, i know its wayyyy overdue but i really didnt have any time to blog before this
but really hope you had a nice birthday @ essential brews that day :D it was actually my first time there haha
anw you're finally as old as meeee! heehee join the club of aging women :(

hmm okay other than elaine's 20th, the past week has been about really fun singing practices with reso (i really love our group!), string practices @ zhic's house for the coming wedding, a few bishibashi battles (muahaha), a few movies here and there, loads of studying, finally having a proper DG and a nice bible study with the group, meeting up the 2 mels for lunch, and finally being able to conquer the piano battle songs from the movie secret! (:

(not to mention, hell alot of studying and flunking of tests sighh)

but i dare say, the worst has yet to come.
and i have this ominous feeling that this is gonna be how its like till finals.

goodbye social life :(

midsems

4 down, 1 to go.
in the past 2 days i've had prolly the worst combination of midsems ever to occur
but even as i heave a huge sigh of relief, and pat myself on the back telling myself the worst is over,
i also cant help worrying about what the outcome of all will be.
and how i will react to it.

no amount of herculean preparation or late night studying would have prepared me for the big failure on monday
never in my life have i fared that badly in any exam - i think i have a high chance of getting ZERO
at the start of the paper i was giving myself a mental pep talk about buying more textbooks to read up,
but by the end of the paper i felt like running to the tallest building to jump off, and then get up, run up, and jump again.

but whats done is done. thankfully i have today's paper to balance out the mood-o-meter (and perhaps the last paper ytd)
now all i have to do, is to score FULL MARKS for the final paper to ensure salvation of my microeconomics II.

no shit, thats -insert expletive- insane.

but, as the saying goes: "the best is yet to be".
so, just do it.