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今天一大清早，kenneth 教我怎样用华语 type，因为我在等一个很懒的人起床. type 华文原来是这么容易，也很好玩。所以，我们就用华语在 MSN 上 chat, 可是我已经忘了很多话文字，所以看起来就像这个 post 一样 pathetic.

questions with no answers

ive landed myself in more questions with no answers. or at least, those which answers have not YET been found. including my latest chem craze - attempting to cram the entire chem syllabus into my small brain for SATs in a month's time. woohoo. NOT fun at all. after flipping thru the thick books of alien knowledge which ive just received, i think i shld claim overwhelming insanity.

grr. i must fight on. in the meantime, any chem help is graciously embraced (: and i mean ANY. this is wayy harder than i thought.

i feel so lazy and heck-care about everything. which really isnt gd. esp when im sposed to be preparing to go out now, but im really too tired and sleepy. ohoh and on a random note, ive found many people who're involved in CCIS (celebrate christmas in s'pore) as well! (: awesome. orchard's gonna be so beautifully decorated and lively with all the performances being put up, with caroling, dances, musicals, skits.. (: God's grace. caroling rehearsals have been pretty fun too, albeit tiring, just that it still feels a lil weird when my name seems to appear everywhere in the songs (joyjoyjoy!), tho i should be used to it by now.

here're some random snapshots of our hk trip to end off a very random post..



i just want to know the truth, beneath those broken promises...

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sometimes i just wonder. why God wld take away something that meant so much to me. something that i gave thanks everyday for. God must have his reasons. those that transcend my understanding and comprehension, because it just doesnt seem to make sense. i pray for acceptance, but many a times i cant help feeling sad about it; i pray for strength, but many a times i feel so weak.

Sentimental days
In a mist of clouded haze
Of a memory that now feels untrue

but i truly thank god for those around me. who're ready to lend me an arm or shoulder to lean on. who've wrote me letters in sharing. who've called just to check up on me. who've been there for me. i love you guys (:

Tangled in a web
With a pain hard to forget
That was a time that I've now put to rest

when things are down, the only way they can go is up. so hopefully things will turn for a better soon (:



remember how you used to say
i'd be the one to run away
but i'm still here

when god made you

"Oh I wonder what god was thinking, when he created you.
I wonder if he knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When god made you, he must have been thinking about me.. "

a really really beautiful song. thanks marc for sending it to me (: never knew u were a romantic sorta guy haha (JUST KIDDING). but it really lifted my spirits. i guess good things cant happen all the time. there will be moments of sadness, times of dejection and hopelesseness. and when they do, i pray for the strength to pick myself up together and fight on. to move on to each new brighter day, and to hold on to happy memories. its prolly stuff like these that makes me appreciate what i have even more, esp the people around me.

always look on the bright side of life... (:

anyhow. HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY JASON! sorry i cldnt stay for the entire party. oh and you're officially an adult now!! haha so act like one! :p lol just kidding. hope you had fun! (:

my wisdom tooth's growing. now i know how i felt when i was a baby and growing teeth. in constant pain!! sobs. but maybe now i'll be wiser and my worldclass small teeth wont seem so small anymore... hehehe (:

i wonder what god is thinking...

tong hua!!

the best music needs not be from those who are well known. i just heard the nicest version of tong hua, sang by a blind busker and accompanied by his acoustic at the MRT station (: needless to say, many hearts were melted that evening. including mine (:

Chances are I'll see you
In my dreams tonight
You'll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer all i have..

made another trip to ritz carlton today (: to relive prom memories. HAHA. NOT. went there to take pics with lide for HC prom, and when he walked up, celine and i saw a HOTTIE with funky hair! woohoo. hahaha im serious lide you better send me sideview pics of your hair i forgot to take em just now! :p

another interesting encounter awaited shai and i after that, when we crashed olio dome for dinner just to visit waitress seok at her first day of work! haha (: omg everything was so expensive we decided to just have potatoes (in the form of wedges & fries) for dinner. shai did his fair share to irritate seok, while i just kept laughing haha oops :p

i still cant find my own job ): it feels like im not doing something productive and purposeful. an aimless wanderer who's having fun but ultimately not headed anywhere. and theres gonna be at least 8 more months till school starts again. i need to find some purpose in life!!


and she said, theres a time to forget, and the time is now...

of glitz and memories

prom night. that, which started with a big hoohaa of high-strung nerves and accentuated stress level when murphy's law enacted itself, also ended with a big hoohaa of crazy dancing and drinking at club momo.

before that, pictures which encapsulate the prim-and-properness of dinner at ritz, where food was left untouched as much as programs left unviewed.

that of the girls..





and the boys..



it was also a night of 'dingdings' and 'dingding wannabes' haha, in physical form or in memory. anyhow, it concluded with singing and walking through the streets of china town at 5am, and camping out in the hotel lounge because we didnt want to wake ms yim up at 6am, until the hotel operator called her by accident, solving all of our problems immediately.

but a truly memorable experience with a class that's unique in all ways.




and the reason is you..

sisterhood of the traveling jeans

In the dark
Moving hands to find my way
Reaching for a chance
And the words to say

And here I go
Letting go
Just to never let you go
I'm so scared to feel safe

a truly touching movie. about love, life, and loss. got me thinking about something that ive been brooding about for some time. that, perhaps im seeking that for the wrong reasons entirely. to make me forget the lows of the past, and dwell in the highs of the present/future.

maybe, that just isnt the way to go.

turn left turn right

"阴天傍晚车窗外未来有一个人在等待
向作向右向前看爱要拐几个弯才来.."


awww so cute..

i realized how much i missed strings after hearing the familiar wafts of rutter floating by my window, courtesy of my practicing neighbor and his violin. guess there has always been something magical about music, no matter how much a piece was overplayed and no matter how dreaded practices were. the beauty of music always supercedes, etched firmly as a pleasant recollection; always a part of me.

aside from the hectics of each day, like the longest exam i ever took (SATs), and the constant shopping, and friends, ive been doing some reading on my own (: got hooked on "the hobbit" after i re-discovered it, and made me rly crave for LOTR again! grr i havent even watched the last movie -.- someone lend it to me pls!! ):

still havent found my dream job yet. but ive got my dress! (: with a stroke of luck and a whole truckful of God's grace i found it just as i was about to give up haha. feels like a whole load taken off my shoulders. was gettin a lil heavy back there!

"我遇见你是最美丽的意外
总有一天我的谜底会解开.."

dinner with the guys was rather interesting. and romantic! i love bishan park haha. scratch that. i love parks! and for once, no dota talk! o.m.g so proud of em (: dinner also included free delicious tiramisu desert. lovelovelove. i wanna learn how to make tiramisu! wee~ *drools*


i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides..

SATs words

i am credulous.

i am gullible.

i am fleeceable.

i am trusting.


so many diff words to mean the same thing. english is truly an expressive language. just that it sucks to have to be studying after As >.<

i really need to:
1) get a job. hopefully at starbucks! (:
2) buy my prom dress!!
3) get rid of SATs
4) catch up with long lost friends!! (:
5) sleep

anybody wanna hire me?? i promise to be hardworking, expeditious, zealous, gumptious, joyful and cheerful everyday! (: hehe all my SAT words rolled up in one

gonna attempt to finish studying SATs in just one day. gd luck to me. sigh.

get up

im sneezing every half a min or so. and the routine has been repeating itself for the past hours. sam said that when you sneeze, it means someone's thinking about you. so somebody out there must be thinking rly hard of me!! (: yeah right. guess im staring mr flu right in the face. again. ohno.

And I fly
I reach out my hands and touch the sky

sleepover at mel's was fun (: great time of bonding and alot more sharing among us couch potatoes. hehehe. realized we havent seen many of our classmates since prelims and through As. n its juz kinda sad knowing that there will be friends who will drift apart as JC comes to a close, and we part our own ways seeking individual dreams and ambitions. already feeling "unstudent" as iris puts it as we are now, and its a rather scary feeling for me, to be leading purposeless lives, "bumming around" for the next.. 7-8 months not knowing what's gonna come next and where we're gonna end up.

i guess it helps knowing Daddy has His plans for me. and i just gotta trust in Him to set the direction in my life. Daddy's driving this ride (:

i wanna go back to disneyland... ): it was rly awesome feels as if you step into a magical world of fantasy because of the buildings and people and parades. fireworks at sleeping beauty castle at night was so beautiful, and it was coupled with disney fairy tale music plus laser displays. pictures coming up soon! (: it was hell of an experience (:


I am moving through the crowd
Trying to find myself
Feel like a guitar that's never played
Will someone strum away?