faith above feelings

a distant date of the future has since become the present. enlistment date.

its beyond a time to express feelings for each other, or exchanging 'farewell' gifts. its like a new chapter opening in each of our lives, in diff ways of course. exciting, but also a little scary at times.

its hard, but putting faith above feelings really does help. putting God despite of self. im trying, and im trusting (: daddy's driving this ride right?

"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together
keep me in your heart,
I'll stay there forever" - Winnie the Pooh


as with tradition, a last shot in honor of mac's hair hahas.


and.. gelare waffles with icecrem & whipped cream!! yumyum(: altho it wasnt tues. but who cares. it looks rather bloody in the shot haha because of the streaks of hot choc fudge MMMMMHMMM~


hmm. a shot @ westcoast park. it's really beautiful trust me, just that my photography skills aint up to skill. and there were bursts of fire emitted from the incinerator across the ocean/sea/pond/lake. rather intriguing.




I carry your heart with me
I carry it in my heart (:

mmhmm

mmhmm i want to linger here
mmhmm a little longer here
mmhmm a little longer here with you

time. my greatest enemy.

wont you slow down a little?

revisited my wonder 6100 phone, that encompassed the many memories and emotions that i had in my JC years. funny how little text msgs can remind you of so much, and so much more. with each msg comes the recollection of the events leading to that msg, and the closeness in relationship with that person at that point in time. which, would undoubtedly lead to the thought of how people drift apart when they're forced into an intersection, a crossroad, a fork which splits us up into diff streams. or sometimes, even without any hurdles ahead. haha.

but that's life, and we just gotta face it.

God has a plan for every one of us. because when He closes one door, He opens another. perhaps sometimes, the solution is just to trust. have faith that what He leads us to is part of His wonderful and meticulously designed plan. we may not be able to see, but He does.

so, when, for example, a really gd gd friend is going to leave to go overseas for studies, we'll have faith that it's for the best. and hence, be joyful instead of sad. but with that said, shit im gonna cry my eyes out when you leave gurl :(

or, when, for example, the mighty green demonstration decides that its time for your boyfriend to leave the luxury of civilian life to join the band of brothers, we'll trust that it's also for the best, and that things will work out just fine (: just 2 more days...

this whole week just seems all too short suddenly.

sick ):

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

haha my eyes are already brown! (:

quizzes from isabelle's blog. while waiting for king arthur to announce his arrival at my humble castle. haha ok just kidding.

im.. SICK. with a nose thats gone for a marathon and back, a stinging throat and watery eyes. all i wanna do is snuggle in bed and shut the world out by closing my eyes. or maybe sit in bed with a book in hand. or just lie in bed watching the rain fall outside my window, feeling all safe and cozy.

maybe i'll just do all of the above (:

good friday retreat

one word. refreshing.

its just a period of time set aside for the commemoration of Jesus' death. hence, also a time where we actually quietened down at one pt or the other, just to listen and communicate with God. yea, i think we need things like these from time to time - a few days devoted to the fellowship with God, and also btwn us brothers & sisters in Christ. a spiritually enlightening & faith-strengthening 2 days, which also helped me get to know and understand this family much better and deeper.



red, blue, gold! (:


comfy & cozy


girls


a bunch of us (:


whos the man. haha.


our tasty midnight snack! plus a few others =p

two words. thank God (:


once again i thank You
once again i pour out my life..

and YAYY cuz macs coming to church tmr :))

here you me

the mighty blue demonstration (or green in this case) will be opening its jaws wide, and devouring another one of our fellow civilian-turning-soldier by tmr. a rather big one at that. HEE~ there goes the hair (what's new), the IC (haha), and the freedom (of speech). so, take care, good luck, and God speed (: may you take good care of your gun (so you wont lose it like the girl in the 9 o'clock show), and may you become our next friendly neighborhood police cycling around the HDB blocks in an undersized bicycle! haha just kidding. sorry for making you play DDR :p it was all in the name of fun AND exercise

waffles tuesday tmr (: we'll see if its a success or failure (again). haha.


a shimmer of hope..

love

yes, so optimism does pay off.

because today, (and towards the end of yesterday), i felt comforted
being able to grasp some light in the mess.
thats really all i ask.
the rest, we'll just leave it to God's hands
afterall, Daddy's driving this ride.. (:

thanks everyone for the advice and prayers. it really helped (:

an awesome service to end off the week. or, to start off a new week.
familiar faces jo chean, john and tee were a welcome sight (:
they, who testify to God's love, and are testimonials to God's grace
they, who helped all of us grow tremendously in God's words
they, who continued and will continue to plant His seeds in many
they, whom i greatly respect and admire for their faith and love.
it just shows us how real and abundant God's love is
to touch so many people's lives through these 3 men
to touch their lives to begin with
and also, to touch my life (:

so. in hope and faith, all's gd for now (:


For all honor, and blessing, and power
belongs to You...

our prayer

time and time again, we come face to face with big-fat-obstacles. my natural reaction would be to run away. but this time, im forced to face it. WE'RE forced to face it. thing is, there doesnt seem to be any clearcut solution. and to make things worse, it's really out of my control.

in all that blurry mess, this is what's clear to me:
God will make a way
when there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for us

idk how things are gonna turn out. it seems perfect, except for this thorn.
if only i can fast forward time, i'll know what i should do now.
but whatever it is girls, we gotta stay strong
because aside from having each other, we have Him (:

"In His time, he makes all things beautiful"

remember?

so i guess for now, i'll repeat the phrase "a joyful heart is good medicine" again and again to myself, and then things wont seem so bad.

like today's SMU interview. which went quite alright. i went in expecting an individual interview, but it turned out to be a group interview. which was a huge relief honestly because i had albert in my group! (: what a coincidence. but having someone to talk to while in the holding room does wonders for frayed nerves. so as for the rest, i'll just wait-and-see.

and hope for the best...

I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe

BOOze

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand,
that he may lift you up in due time
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you" - 1 Peter 5:6-7

sometimes i feel so high, and sometimes i feel so low
sometimes i see light, and sometimes i see darkness
sometimes theres hope, and sometimes theres desolation
sometimes its sweet, and sometimes its bitter

and sometimes, i just dont understand why i feel these fluctuations in emotions.

so hence, i blame it on the good ole scapegoat ---> PMS

"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow
for tomorrow will worry about itself.." - Matt 6:34

touched

i finally got the call for interview from SMU. -phew- i was beginning to think that i got rejected. -phew- only bad thing is that the interview is 9am in the morning on a bright sunny saturday morning!! -sulk-

i met up with edwin today (: just 4 days from becoming a clean-shaven recruit donning green serving his nation. so we took some spastic pics in thai xpress in remembrance of his hair. and also to compare the befores & afters HEHE.

more pics with shades. because we were playing around with our shades..





ohoh. i just remembered. tmr's tuesday!! which means ---> half price for gelare waffles!! (: girls & boys we got to grab em this time (:

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt. You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

"From the first moment when I heard Your name
Something in my heart came alive
You showed me love and no words could explain
A love with the power to
Open the door
To a world I was made for.." - Steven Curtis Chapman

sentosa

the title pretty much says it all.

a fun day @ sentosa!! (see below)



the women in shades. plus a few other pics that are not uploaded yet.
altho i wasnt at all prepared because i thot i was gonna have to rush down to church for praise & meeting. hence i brought along nothing except myself.

wrong move.

but i managed to get a slight tan anyways. HEE~ (: the weather was perfect, the scenery was awesome. i really wanna go back there againn!!

badminton + pseudo gym ytd kinda wiped me out today. i played a few matches with the little boys (: namely, seth, david, sean, and.. MAC. hahaha. (pls dont kill me)
i cant remember whet my team won or lost. or BOTH.
but it was a good workout. esp for this couch potato.

im so so tired now. after an awesome weekend. with you (:
'everyday i love you more and more.. "


i'm coming back to the heart of worship
where its all about You, all bout You Jesus..