say goodnight

these few days have been pretty fun (:

i realized that i actually enjoy myself when i dont have to work at YSL. its amazing how much energy can be zapped outta you when u do 8 hour shifts, and live&breathe makeup. sigh. so we've been upgraded to "beauty consultants" instead of promoters now. such euphemism. but on a brighter note, product discounts and getting paid to model for leo aint such a bad deal (: plus, we got a free makeover haha. tho it wasnt that fantastic but anyhow. free money (:

sometimes i wish i werent that sentimental. getting rushed over by waves of nostalgia at times errs my judgment and rationality. being emotional is one thing; but being sentimental, is a totally different story. it makes it harder to give up things even though i know i should, like giving up one of my two jobs to get a life back. but its so hard when you've grown closer to the people and the company; it makes it harder to say goodbye. yet rationally, i know what i should do. right now, i just dont know which, and how.

but when i hand things over to God, i know things will turn out fine (: trusttrusttrust.