you will never walk alone

Along life's road
There will be sunshine and rain
Roses and thorns, laughter and pain...

2 days to the release of results. how distant the memory seems now, when joanne and i were picked (because we didnt have to take our chinese results) to help arrange the j3s who were going on stage to busk in the glory of 3As or more. how exciting it was then, watching the exuberant joy on the faces of our well-deserving seniors, and the tears of happiness on the teachers' faces as they hug and congratulate their students. i watched all of these from the back stage of the hall, an observer rather than a participant - hoping, wishing, thinking.

i believe that was when muggers club was formed, all of us intent on our four As (: that was the beginning of last year.

a year later.. we anticipate our turn to become participants. results aside, it'll be a chance to see everyone again. words cant describe aptly how much i have missed everybody, and how much ive missed AC. also a chance to see many of our national defenders.. in their new hairstyle. prolly the last time the class of 2005 reunites in AC under a common purpose.

so till then, this is what i'll dwell in.

You will never walk alone
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way..

gore fest

ok. phew. its the weekends. finally some time to slow things down, breathe again, and think about the past week. or weeks.

our couples sleepover was.. a success (: but not after all that flurry and hoohaas about the what-ifs and what-nots. with a taste of the cons of close interconnectedness between our parents. sometimes its not all that great when our folks are the best of friends too haha. but anyhow, all was ironed out in the end (: and our gore fest (final destination 3 & the fog & fearless) still carried through. with the addition of munich at the movies after that, where i fell aslp half the time cuz i was wayy too tired.

announcement of release of results on wed dampened the moods a lil at the end. i realized that its not the fear of bad results that im grappling with, for whats done is done. its more of the knowledge that many major decisions and changes will have to be made upon the receipt of my ticket to the next stage of my life that im afraid of. the elimination of my new comfy circle that i have drawn for myself, knowing that i have to take on an outward bound mentality, and take my steps out of this circle. i fill my head with many diff scenarios, picturing myself in diff situations and imagining how i would deal with them all. and after all that, i throw all these thoughts away, and put all faith in Daddy up there. strange that the fear comes first before the reminder of His great plan for all of us, but it is comforting to know that whichever direction im headed in, God will make a way (:

every step i take i take in You
You are my way, Jesus..

with trust, with faith, and with belief.

everything in its time

there must be a reason for this smile on my face. and i think i know the reason why (:

maybe its that starry starry night. that made it all the more beautiful.
i love laying at the playground, just you and me.
i love laying under those stars, wishing, thinking, and sharing.
i love laying still, listening to the silent night breeze.
it was what i have always wanted, and so much more (:

yesterday was about..

• dragging my lazy ass off bed to town for lunch (or breakfast in my case) with joshua. yes i woke up just so we cld have our lunch appointment.. better appreciate me!!
• being in the right place at the right time. we finally got gelare waffles with icecream for 50% off just because we were there on a tuesday! and hell, it was amazing. esp with the intensifying of my chocolate craving recently..
• walking into a movie without knowing what the movie was about entirely. such as, the constant gardener. turns out to be quite a gd show, albeit really sad because it shows the selfish nature of humans and the pathetic yet inevitable state of Africa.
• you (: for the blanket that brought warmth both to body and my heart in that cold theater.

and. i think i must be growing old. because i really dont feel like clubbing tmr. even if its at MOS.

truly madly deeply

i guess i've fallen back into the circle of trust once again. or rather, the circle of longing and love (: a little by little im taken, entering into a realm where only you and i exist. right now, it's pretty pretty (:

so ive been fiddling around with technology, presenting the wonders of bluetooth and the razr camera.. (which isnt really all that great)


my beloved teddybear and official lunch buddy. who totally made my day today when he picked me up from work with a double fudge chocolate brownie. -melt- and a beautiful toy bouquet for vday (: thankew so much!! lovelove.



my beloved talkcock-er and the one whos always there (: whom i talked on the phone till wayyy past midnight, explaining the horrendous eyebags i wore to work today. thank god i work at a makeup counter =p



my beloved past time and art-on-a-perfume-strip. this is me at work, finding ways to waste ink and time, acting my vengeance on the neverending supply of perfume strips. too bad the picture's a little blur.


so the past few days have been funfunfun (: like funorama. for starters, melody abel and i won an ipod nano while playing uno bounce! yayy. so we threw a few balls into a few colored bowls, bending way way over the line (with permission), and landed ourselves the highest prize offered! hahaha. and abel the lucky guy's gonna get to keep it since us girls are alr loaded with ipod minis! hehe.

desperate housewives' starting in exactly 5 min times. which means my post ends here so that i can prep myself for monday tv night (: wee~

badminton (:

i love my friends (:

i mean you, you and you. all of YOUs.

thanks for all the smiles and laughter, the fun times that i'll never forget, the memories shared, and just being there for me no matter what (:

even if right now, a friend is threatening to kill me if im late for funorama tmr morning. haha =p but i still love you just the same haha (: even if it means dragging my sorry and sore ass out of bed tmr morning. badminton is one quick way to get a butt ache - yours truly being a fine example of such.

ok better sleep before i really get killed tmr.

my valentine

If there were no words, no way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears, no way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you...

little surprises that painted a smile on my face. many werent expected, but greatly appreciated in the end (:

walking down the streets of town that was peppered with roses, balloons, hearts and hugs, it just felt really nice to see and feel the love in the air (: be it friends or lovers.

our little sleepover cum cookies-baking session failed miserably, and hence i ended up with no gifts whatsoever. it was the heart that counted anyways :p



And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time

my slice of life

our little heart-to-heart was the key to unlocking memories kept up in the deepest darkest parts of our hearts. same experiences, same sentiments, same maturity. we've all learnt it the hard way, that which have made us just a little less gullible, less trusting, and more guarded. protection for our little fragile hearts.

how easy it is to diss boys. especially those who make and then break. for i believe in purging. it helps; like band-aid on the tiny cuts healing themselves in our hearts. perhaps to hide the ugliness of it, or just to leave them aside and hope they go away by themselves. yeah, it hurts that they're not hurting as much as you do. maybe its because they didnt care as much to begin with. or simply, just because.

but at every end, theres always a new beginning. a new journey to be explored once again, a clearer understanding and brighter perspective. and you begin to feel the need again, the want, and the longing. same feelings, different person. but this time, you look before you leap. in some point or another, the "L" word comes into the picture once again. and you find yourself falling all over again, trusting and believing. and the cycle starts itself again..

what a love-hate relationship. God must have an interesting sense of humor.

but thanks babe, for letting me know that im not alone in this (: to share the bittersweetness of the past, and the anticipation and excitement of the present, and perhaps future? haha. we'll walk in this together, alongside God (: because then we'll know that everything's gonna be fine, even if the "tong huas" dont exist.

outward bound

happy birthday wayne! (:

(if you see this)

surprise party was pretty successful, except for one minor screwup when charles waltzed just a few secs before wayne haha. a rather funny experience, with all of us hiding (or attempting to hide) behind the wall waiting to spring our attack on the supposedly unsuspecting wayne, when charles appeared at the door, and wayne right after, with the knowing look on his face. OOPS.

but it was nice to meet up with everybody again (: esp sarah lai!! haha i missed you! havent seen you for soooo long you better ask me out quick! haha

oh and something's going on today that made everybody wear black. seriously. like for example, look below.




unsynchronized coordination. the girls in black (: nice.


Happy times come and go, but memories last forever

i'll always remember that.

hmmm...

i dreamt of you last night. idk why, and idk how. but i dont want you in my head. outoutout. shoo. you're not healthy for me.

I AM...

happy, because i had got so many nice people who dropped by work today just to say hi, to talk, to eat lunch, or just to buy me nice food which makes me nicely fat. hehe. but sweet nonetheless (: makes me feel so l-o-v-e-d.

unhappy (what irony), because corporate commission got eliminated, which means that from now on i only get commission for my own sales, and not the total sales of the day. ARGH.

tired, because i had quite alotta customers by the counter today, but that doesnt mean i made alotta sales, since most of them just ask me questions about makeup for the kick of it.

nostalgic, because i saw many AC people today out selling funorama tickets, and it made me wish i was a JC kid once again, where our worries were not being able to reach the sales target for tickets, and not makeup.

excited, because tmr's gonna be another praise team prac, which is rare considering the number of weeks which have gone past without actually practicing for worship. and i love praise team pracs (:

comfy, because im currently typing this on my nice soft bed, and listening to relientk and robbie williams, wit all the time in the world, and feeling like life's pretty perfect (:


Memories, pressed between the pages of my mind
Memories, sweetened thru the ages just like wine,
Memories, memories, sweet memories

mixtape

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understandings with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our heart, and we are never ever the same" - Chicken Soup for the Soul

samm!! i miss you ): terribly.

and i cant get the chinese new year songs outta my head. the ones that play over and over again at paragon. which means i have to listen to cny songs sung in english for the whole 8 hours where im working. and now they're stuck in my head and refuse to leave. to the point where i found myself singing and humming those tunes while in the shower (much to my horror). ARGHHH. therefore i conclude, that propaganda via repetition does work much to my disbenefit.

i met up with so many people today (: josh for lunch, candy for snack (not literally), lide & mac after work, and josh again for some shopping. makes work a little more.. interesting. especially after a whole new stock of makeup came in, and we had to repack the makeup stock, and much to my embarrassment i dropped a full box of lipstick, scattering about 100 lipstick on the floor...

needless to say, i spent the next 30 min repacking everything. SIGH.

but i finished another novel!! (: and i made a new friend with the resident security guard at paragon. he appears to take little delight in sneaking in chocolates and little titbits for me now and then, and to check up on my progress on the novel. and hes a real joy to have around work, cuz hes always so smiley and happy (: makes me more smiley and happy myself.


But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

of wisdom and contentment

"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him" - 1:5 James

sometimes i wished i knew exactly what to do.

i guess they're not really complicated matters. simple choices to make. but each with their own chain of consequences and outcomes, set off easily by a word, a choice, an action. im just afraid of regretting, and wondering about the "what-ifs". but then again, whats life without those calculated risks and picking yourself up from falls, wiping down those bruises and learning from the mistakes? that's life isnt it.

in my thirst for wisdom, i found this:

"Not that i speak in regard to need, for i have learned in whatever state i am, to be content" - 4:11 Philippians

so i guess it all boils down to that one fundamental concept. seeking contentment in life, and prolly in every situation. seeking the seeds of joy amidst.. perhaps, desolation. like how a long shift at paragon was more fun today because of the laughter shared btwn the girls (and maybe guys) near my counter (elizabeth arden and stila), plotting against our evil superviser supposedly from the land of the unhappy, and actually having something to do besides checking my thick-but-never-thick-enough-to-pass-regulations makeup every 15 min just because i have absolutely nothing else to keep me busy with.

and you feel generally alot happier, when you look at what you have accomplished thus far, and how the little things in life brighten up your day, and you feel that warmth of contentment. then you'll stop craving for that sunset which you didnt get a chance to see, or the movie you didnt have time to watch, or the fun that you just havent had. YET.

so till then, im contented (:

angel

my head has lodged war against me with migraine attacks these two days. which is curious since im not under stress, nor do i have alot of things to think about. in fact, ive been quite happy! (: having some fun with life, with...

1) bowling wit the guys
at the SAFRA near cmpb. especially since i was sprinkled with some beginner's-luck-dust hehehe. that sorta died out by the time we played pool tho haha. but it was fun (:

2) chompchomp with the 87ers
so even tho i missed the visit to qingliang's place, all of us got treated to a scrumptious spread of seafood, fried chicken, porridge, and satay at chompchomp! (: it was so gd & yummy. had quite alotta fun catching up with everybody! and got quite a shock from ernest's new hair-do. hmmm...

3) work
ok thats not too fabulous, but ive successfully completed 3 novels thus far at work. not too bad to kill time. nora roberts and linda howard make gd companions at work (: and im getting better at my makeup skills! haha or at least i choose to believe so. ive progressed to actually daring to put makeup on my customers now, and they actually turn out pretty ok, and not beaten up & bruised hehe. oh and edwin came to visit me at work today too haha. it was fun goofing around like the old times.

4) stargazing
literally and otherwise. nathan took me stargazing finally haha. and it was absolutely beautiful. i swear, i could have laid there forever haha. in metaphorical terms, ive had my fair share of encounters with celebs too! fiona seah, mark ng, denise kellar, mark waite (i think), and a few others whose names i cant recall. not that i really care, but its fun to see how these "stars" are actually rather down-to-earth like everyone else, and pretty much just like you and me.

4) my angel in disguise
im rather touched (: thanks.




i woke up this morning
feeling kinda.. new (:

all in a day's work

so i decided to summarise my day in pictures. pictures afterall paint a thousand words..


ethan ong @ paragon. i cant believe hes only 6 years old, and hes totally awesome at drums. he drums to hillsongs & other christian music (: truly amazing. i watch him almost every time i get off work haha.



my tiramisu cake @ coffee club with seok and shai (: gd food, gd company!! i miss you guys so much!!



yana's birthday @ jordan's (: crazy people.



a small portion of the alcohol consumed @ jordan's. like i said, crazy people.



the night view @ punggol. my first time on the LRT, and my first time in such a deserted place.