of wisdom and contentment

"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him" - 1:5 James

sometimes i wished i knew exactly what to do.

i guess they're not really complicated matters. simple choices to make. but each with their own chain of consequences and outcomes, set off easily by a word, a choice, an action. im just afraid of regretting, and wondering about the "what-ifs". but then again, whats life without those calculated risks and picking yourself up from falls, wiping down those bruises and learning from the mistakes? that's life isnt it.

in my thirst for wisdom, i found this:

"Not that i speak in regard to need, for i have learned in whatever state i am, to be content" - 4:11 Philippians

so i guess it all boils down to that one fundamental concept. seeking contentment in life, and prolly in every situation. seeking the seeds of joy amidst.. perhaps, desolation. like how a long shift at paragon was more fun today because of the laughter shared btwn the girls (and maybe guys) near my counter (elizabeth arden and stila), plotting against our evil superviser supposedly from the land of the unhappy, and actually having something to do besides checking my thick-but-never-thick-enough-to-pass-regulations makeup every 15 min just because i have absolutely nothing else to keep me busy with.

and you feel generally alot happier, when you look at what you have accomplished thus far, and how the little things in life brighten up your day, and you feel that warmth of contentment. then you'll stop craving for that sunset which you didnt get a chance to see, or the movie you didnt have time to watch, or the fun that you just havent had. YET.

so till then, im contented (: