answers

ive found answers. to a few open ended questions regarding the past, and the present.

whether i was pleased or not with those answers, thats another story. but ive found them. finally. after long long bouts of time.

and amidst all that, i realized how faithless i was. admittedly, personal pride brought along personal defeat and disappointment. a lack of trust in Him, who made it so awesome when i take a step back and look at it all. a real test to my optimism, a trait i cling on to as a source of strength. but through it all, i give thanks for all that has occured and happened, because i exit with an experience that i'll never trade with for anything. the love shared, and the memories that last mean so much more to me. after all, all's accomplished for His glory.

also, the answers serve as a close to the past chapter of my life. no longer asking the "whys" and "whens", but accepting things for how they turned out. im thankful for these answers, given that few people actually do get a chance to find out why. it has offered me the closure which i have sought for a very very long time. and now, ive finally gotten it.

perhaps some of my answers are also found in someone (: the brightest star in the sky.

so. im happy (: