renovation day #1

i have officially diagnosed myself with "start-of-life-crisis"
yes, people have mid-life crisis, and theres even end-life crisis. and i have the beginning of it all
theres no other way of explaining these things i feel, these problems i face
im surrounded by many people, and yet i feel so alone at times
watching the world go by, a mere observer confounded by the inability to participate
its like im trapped in a glass world of my own - i cant find a way out
im tired of being a shapeshifter. i just want to be myself. i want to be ME.
wont you let me be..?

but perhaps, all of this can be good.
maybe its because of this suffocation that inspires change
the element that kickstarts the gears of transformation
maybe it is this that will melt the ice, and strip me down to just pure me
to bring me back into reality

hello, world..

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today i went to mac's house to give him an extra pair of hands in his room revamp
all the furniture arrived at once today, and filled his whole room with so many boxes
it really felt as if he moved house or something. hmm, nice (:

and then we began hammering, fixing, and assembling (:



the final product's not up yet, but im still really proud of us (:


my hands are a little sore from lugging and hammering wood, but i really like fixing up furniture!
makes me feel really handy, and kinda reminds me of the lego-period
(yes, i was a lego-kid)

more updates and pictures after renovation day #2 (:

sunshine after the rain

im back in the lil sunny island called home (:
been a rather busy 3 days, with loads of catching up and whatnots.

had to say goodbye to my.. urm, 3rd love on sunday :(
(haha sorry your ranking comes after ginger! hahaha family mahh)


we're gonna miss you so bad :( i know i am.
sorry the kidnapping didnt quite work out. i'll try harder in dec :p

on saturday mac&i went to ikea to shop for furniture for his new room (:
its so exciting i love how ikea makes me feel. maybe its all that wood.
ok no, its the prospect of creating a new room all by yourself thats exciting. all that wood..
ok, and maybe because carpark is so bloody cheap there im happy to dwell forever there (:
whatever it is, we bought all the furniture required for the revamp! woots.
a new room, coming right up! (:


You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all because of you

sights and sounds

the stills that capture my life for the past 1.5 weeks (:
first but not least, my room which has been my home and source of refuge the whole time..





the aircon's really cold in my room. its like at a constant 22deg or something
its so cold i have a really have a hard time leaving the warm embrace of my quilt each morning for work


this is the hotel i stay in - park avenue
its a pretty nice place i must say, and just 3 min walk from my workplace!

speaking of which..

this is my pigeonhole/rat's nest, also my work station where i work at most of the time
and while im at it, wireless internet HAS to be the best thing since the invention of sandwiches (:


the teenyweeny meeting room where i spend my hours utterly confused and amazed by business talk


and the plant next to my window which must be tired of me staring at it by now.

just to let you have an idea of the good food that has been accused of making me fat,

here's just a little still that i managed to capture when i rmb to bring my camera out (:
it was at this restaurant by the bund, which is the whole stretch of colonial buildings that were restored to become a very high-class and posh street of retail and restaurants (: absolutely beautiful.


this is one of the silk shops where i've been shopping at
the products there are made of very fine silk, hand-sewn and intricately designed!
we bought pillow cases, makeup pouches, bags, all made by this shop

thats about it for now. havent been taking a lot of pictures cuz im just too lazy to lug an SLR around the whole day
now i miss my exilim :( very very much indeed.
im still waiting to claim insurance for my very kaputt kamera. (HUIKAII!!!)

BUT. im so excited about going home in 2 days! (:

faith

You will never walk alone
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way
And you may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is
And He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone...




Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need
He will go the distance with you faithfully

faith. faith. faith.

a week in shanghai

being bored at work has never really been an issue for me
as temp staff or internee you usually find yourself bored out of your wits doing mundane tasks
or in the case, attending meetings and trying to understand the corporate world and its related businesses

but being real frustrated and irritated at work is something that requires more to deal with
my work here is just about kicking me out of a plane with a parachute without teaching me how to deploy it;
or like plucking me from land and dumping me into the sea with no knowledge of how to swim
or so on and so on.. you get the idea.
right now im doing research for an american firm in shanghai as an internee, but i really have no idea how to even start
i've tried many ways and directions, but it all seem to bring me to one dead futile end
i know its prolly my job to keep trying, but perhaps some information are never meant to be found
and its just so damn frustrating to keep hitting the same pt after trying so hard
not to mention, reading everything from chinese and trying to make sense of it all
im just perhaps a little lost and out of my mind

damn, i need a hell of a GPS now..



other than that, things here are pretty a-okay. especially the shopping trip yesterday (:
jane (my dad's assistant) and i spent the entire day out on the streets of shanghai
on one and only mission to fulfil prescribed retail therapy treatment
and it was one great success (: [that is, keeping my eyes closed on the RMB spent]
more pictures will be up later..

met up with lynn a few days ago as well to shop and dine at zhengda guangchang (:
it was a great time catching up and all, but it was pretty scary at the end when we cldnt find a cab home
because everybody gushed out of the mall at the same time and started snatching cabs
there were even a few guys who were beating up this cab driver in front of all of us
but then again, some cab drivers really deserve it.
they wont stop for customers, unless you offer them a high price that satisfies them
so there was sort of a blackmarket or cartel or whatever u call it there
and i had to spend 60RMB to get home, when it cld easily have been just 10RMB
GARHHHH.

4 more days till home sweet home....
i cant wait (:

someone else hit the big TWO today.. and its none other than my bestest friend and boyfriend (: so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAC!!! (:


and baby..
you are my shelter from the storm
you are the road that leads me home
and baby with you here face to face
Oh I know I've found my place

and you are strong when I am weak
you are the words when I can't speak
you never fail to see me through
that's the love I found in you

we had a very nice time during dinner ytd at blooie's for our pre celebration(:
just a nice night of pasta, burgers, and bbq chicken, coupled with good mix of house pours.
there was even oldschool love songs playing on the mix
for the actual birthday dinner today we ate at sakae dining. loads of good food too (:
so all in all, it was.. purrfect (:

anyway. another person i hearts a lot too is celine tan!!
we went shopping on thursday before meeting lide for transformers (:
she got me in such a shopping frenzy. but we're living testimony of how retail therapy works hee :P
thankgod im going to shanghai soon. lynn's gonna bring me shopping there woohoo!

i've been really slacking a lot, and watching loads of movies and teevee
friday was spent at my boy's place, watching lots of teevee and couch-potatoing (:
then saturday, mac came over to my place and we watched 200 pound beauty!

to end off, some pictures from church today (:


i'll be seeing the light of shanghai in 2 days time..
and now i dont really feel like going :(

over this rainbow..

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

reading janice's blog really got me missing germany alot
it just seems like this very merry dream that i wanna live in forever
perhaps its just the whole idea of being able to live this carefree careless life
of strawberry fields, wild daisies, and just the cool wind in your face
where you know everything everyday will be beautiful and fun. just because.

and i really do miss janice as my housemate too :(
having her (annoying) alarm clock wake us up every morning
or springing up to see the thermostat the minute we wake up
or groaning when the temperature falls below 10, and cheering when its above 15
or making breakfast in the beautiful kitchen, giggling at the family of wild rabbit living in the garden
and even the mad 100meter dash to the bus stop just so we can catch the bus that arrives at 826am SHARP.




it is through the eyes of such beautiful creation, that you see the work of God and His creations
and all you are capable of doing is to marvel in awe and give thanks (:

anyway, the past week's been filled with crazy cheering, late nights, and truckloads of fun
arts camp 07 started with a bang, and also closed with one (:
im soo proud of our OG for winning the best OG in rumpa, and even more so for how the freshmen bonded so perfectly

当你孤单你会想起谁 - RAIKO!
你想不想找个人来陪 - 想!

its been a really awesome time to get to know people, both fresh and oldies :P
and im glad to announce.. i have a second plate of memories to keep safe in my memory box now!
i love you all of you guys soo much thanks for making arts camp such a memorable one! :D
pictures will come as soon as i figure out where they are... hmm.