renovation day #1

i have officially diagnosed myself with "start-of-life-crisis"
yes, people have mid-life crisis, and theres even end-life crisis. and i have the beginning of it all
theres no other way of explaining these things i feel, these problems i face
im surrounded by many people, and yet i feel so alone at times
watching the world go by, a mere observer confounded by the inability to participate
its like im trapped in a glass world of my own - i cant find a way out
im tired of being a shapeshifter. i just want to be myself. i want to be ME.
wont you let me be..?

but perhaps, all of this can be good.
maybe its because of this suffocation that inspires change
the element that kickstarts the gears of transformation
maybe it is this that will melt the ice, and strip me down to just pure me
to bring me back into reality

hello, world..

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today i went to mac's house to give him an extra pair of hands in his room revamp
all the furniture arrived at once today, and filled his whole room with so many boxes
it really felt as if he moved house or something. hmm, nice (:

and then we began hammering, fixing, and assembling (:



the final product's not up yet, but im still really proud of us (:


my hands are a little sore from lugging and hammering wood, but i really like fixing up furniture!
makes me feel really handy, and kinda reminds me of the lego-period
(yes, i was a lego-kid)

more updates and pictures after renovation day #2 (: