when you know

one of the main reasons i absolutely adore christmas.. is the FOOD. and that was our main attraction at family christmas feast today, complete with turkey, ham & bacon, crepes, spagetti, mashed potatoes, and more. from starved to stuffed. its prolly the only time you see SO much food on the table at once, and so many people at the table gathering that two long tables had to be connected to fit all of us! (:

and like a gd christian family celebrating christmas, we jammed and sang carols and songs. in parts (: music rly runs in the family haha. and its also music that binds the family.

so this christmas was a little diff from the other years. no midnight walks through the crowded streets of orchard, no camping out at abel's till the wee hours of the morning, no performing in the christmas celebrations in church.. but it was fun in its own way (: ironically, just before midnight of christmas, we struggled with the decision between clubbing, or going to crash melody's church with abel. no prizes for the final call haha.

so, just like that, in 4 hours time, christmas will be over. and in another 6 hours time, my family will be boarding a plane to their 12-day vacation without me. again. due to unforeseen circumstances. sigh. well, on the brighter side, 12 days of having the house all to myself (:


theres still so many things i wish to say to you
but i just cant find the words to say
unanswered questions where only you have the answer
but i just dont dare to find out...