nobody's fool

my dogs can bring such a heartfelt smile to my face. even in my worst moments. i juz feel so much joy when i watch their every move, all so innocent and happy. happiness is infectious :)

people have monday blues. but i have wednesday blues. somehow when tt happens, i seem to be holding a magnifying glass, that make pple's faults juz seem so magnified and highlighted. including my own faults and insecurities. i felt i was being made use of. by pple who took advantage of my easily-agreeable nature.

so many issues. so much to think about. i was deeply down due to my dad's departure this morning as well. broke down. tears seem like the easy way out. n it was. it worked.

time check: 8pm
the tears are still there. my eyes feel dry, and my heart empty. i cant explain it. i cant put words to it. i nv felt so completely wiped out. hollow. i cant find something to hold on to. something that's worthwhile. i hate myself for being so weak. for succumbing to myself. giving in to tears. but i juz cant seem to find any strength left. strength in prayer? in God? theres so much hurt tt i nv knew existed. and it all juz came pouring out today