my apologia

there's always a time needed to dish out apologies. tis the day. apologies to tons of things. to kenneth. n whoever concerned. apologies to God. for my inconsistencies as a Christian. apologies to myself, for letting myself down academically, emotionally and mentally.

this week was cursed with loads of work and emotional ups and downs. wit cca, church and other commitments the burdan was beyond my capacity. as i attempted to take things into my hands, i strayed further from God. but as it has been proven, my strength alone can accomplish nothing. i was defeated, bent, and broken. miraculously, God sent me a messenger. out of the blue, joshua chow reminded me to seek God and to pray for guidance. i havent been talking to joshua c since God knows when. and yet he felt suddenly compelled to prod me wit that gentle reminder. praise the Lord

as a result of the crushing burdan my moods have been erratically unstable. so here's another apology to those who've been affected by my grumpy moods.

i've also experienced God's sprinkled little blessings in this week. such as a short chamber prac on thurs. which allowed me some time to study for the math test (tho im still gonna flunk it anyways). and a trip to venezia today wit charles for yummy free ice-cream. ice-cream does wonders for bad moods.

nonetheless, the nagging pull at my conscience refuses to go away...