quando

this week (or what has been this week) has been lived in a stark contrast to last week. ive found myself more focused, awake, and alive. generally, a happier me.

i got a letter frm yapxiong today. he wrote to me b4 his sentence into NS, where in his letter he addressed me as his big monster, which was what we coined in deviation frm the boring angel-mortal letter writing game during the first 3 months of my JC life. it was rly sweet :) it got me to reminisce bout my beautiful J1 year, which i've come to miss alot now as a busier-more-stressed-out-but-having-tons-of-fun J2. those were the days. and yet i look at the J1 batch now wit an air of irritation (no offense) as they crowd up the entire void deck and school in general, quickly zapping up oxygen and food queues.

then again.. i cant bear to imagine how it'll b like when we graduate and leave the securities of the basic education journey. where we'll enjoy the liberties of no school uniforms, and yet the instabilities and uncertainties ahead. i dont even wanna think about it.

had dinner and a nice long talk wit charles ytd after chamber. sushi for dinner is a rly gd idea. it's rly filling. 5 sushis is all it takes. lol. life singers on monday was utterly useless. i feel like juz quitting, but im not a quitter. and yet i feel like im juz wasting my time. till theres a project or concert or event for us to perform in.

tuition today was pretty gd. joshua joined us for tuition for the first time. the weather was juz nice for sleeping. like every other rainy day. boo :( aight back to work work work.