batter my heart three-personed God

"The setting sun, and music at the close,
As the last taste of sweets, is sweetest last,
Writ in remembrance more than things long past."

three rather busy days juz whizzed past in a whirl. time well spent? well, probably. but somehow i cant recall the tangible elements of the days.. juz that in the past few days, ive been feeling rather lighthearted; living the life of Riley : )

yesterday's scholarship convention got me pretty psyched about college, as images of university life in the USA flash past in the powerpoint presentation. it has been somewhat a childhood dream to live and study in in the USA, part and parcel of the westernization that is consequential to globalization. and then i start to ponder if i rly want to disconnect myself frm a familiar community that i have invested my whole life in; departing to an alien world wit no one to turn to, forced into utmost independence and maturity. faced with the internal contention which i have yet to find answers to, i place everything into God's hands, upholding the faith that i will go to wherever He wants me to go.

so anyways~ back to the convention, i was rather disappointed to find limited booths that offer scholarships participating. out of the minimal few that were attainable and present, was the SAF scholarship. yet, i was dismayed to find out that the scholarship involved a 6 year bond to the army, including 3 months BMT (with guys) and more army training that did not exclude jungle trekking n weapons handling. *gasp* but come to think of it, it may b a viable option considering my heart prob that will render me unfit for rigorous physical training. i may juz be posted to admin work in the army. but idk if they'll b as stupid as to leave that loophole in the system unexposed and uncovered.. *fingers crossed*

"You are what happened when I wished upon a star."