strength to carry on

hello stranger...
i cup my head in my hands, eyes closed. my favorite position these days. how nice to shut out the world. just for a minute. get away from the noise, the crowd, the stress, and the countless worries. how i wish..

feeling rather down today. so much to do, so little time. inevitably, i start to doubt my capabilities. i feel so drained, and this is merely the tip of the iceburg. theres a mixture of emotions felt, all whirled up inside me. i know its because of the physical fatigue and mental exhaustion that these things bother me, but it seems just a little harder today to grip onto the positive and hold on for dear life. the cramps that acted up mischeviously throughout the day did not help at all either.

keep smiling, keep shining
knowing you can always count on me
for sure

the temptation of becoming a 3-subber turns into a highly alluring prospect as the As draw nearer. maybe then i'll get a taste of how it feels like to be swimming comfortably hanging onto a raft. instead of dangerously drowning. so tempting. seems like eons ago when i was managing 9 subs including music. how i did it then, it still puzzles me.

sigh. 9 more weeks to 'hang in there'. thnx for making me smile and trying your best to help : ) i rly needed the encouragement.

From the depths of my heart to the heaven above
There I feel Your embrace and the warmth of Your love
I'm not afraid 'cause Jesus I know You are here



gdbye stranger..