tears and rain

yes, i am the ostrich. so many times i have dug a hole, and buried my head into the ground. place myself far far away frm fear, by pretending it does not exist. the fear of getting hurt, the fear of knowing, the fear of simply, the truth. i squeeze my eyes shut, holding on to hope that things will change, times will pass, hurt will diminish. but sometimes, it just doesnt work that way.

because it cant.

If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday

again and again, reality presents itself at my doorstep, screaming at me to face it, fight it out man-to-man, woman-to-woman. i can run, but i cant hide forever.

so sudden. so unexpected. now you see, now you dont. everything in His time. we all prayed so hard. but once He's made up His mind, nothing's gonna change it.

we'll all remember you Jasper. thank you for being a blessing in our lives.